Ever been high on chocolate? Try it. It's fun.

Mai and I got sooo high on chocolate last week; Ramil was about to hit us in the face. We couldn't stop laughing. :)

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Okay. Funny.

We had a fire, as in FIRE, in the store last weekend. I'm kidding. The fire alarm just went off like crazy because, I think, the exhaust is effed up and all the carbon monoxide made its way to the detector.

Anyway, two fire trucks came to the store and everyone was panicking, which is honestly very stupid because there was no REAL fire. But yeah. Some of the people were scared because the alarm wouldn't stop. I guess some of them thought we were going to burn. Yun kasi yung sabi nung alarm.

What's funny is that when the people started panicking, our supervisor, Mr. Tony, started giving away free slushees to the people. LOL So funny. And what a waste! Imagine how much money we could have made just from selling ube and melon slushees. But the lure-them-in-with-slushees plan worked. :)

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This story is one of those things where you had to be there but I'm telling it anyway.

It was Sunday and I was literally so, sooo pissed at the customers at the store. (One thing that sucks about working for Filipinos is that Filipinos are very difficult to please. Save that one for another story.) And then this young lady comes up at the register buying practically everything at the store. Mai was ringing her up and I was bagging everything that she was buying. When it was over, she looked me in the eye and said "Miss, this is for you." I looked down at the counter and saw what she was trying to pass to me. It read "Something is missing?"

Literal na nagdilim ang paningin ko. Pakiramdam ko hindi na ako makakahinga. Ewan ko ba. Parang okay lang na bigyan ako ng ganon. Pero yung timing kasi eh. Masama ang araw ko biglang may darating na "Something is missing?" thingy. Basta. Napikon talaga ako. Anyway, thanks to chocolate - the ultimate pacifier - I calmed down in a bit and I was okay.

Now, before we closed, some people came in, pahabol pa daw. So we let them in. And they bought this and that and afterwards, this lady comes up to the register (Am I an easy target?) and says to me "In case you're ever in need." and hands me this business card. When she went out the door, I read the card and it was for a salon. Yeah. Trying to tell me something? LOL

So. Something is missing? Yup. A trip to the salon.

*laughs like crazy* Eeeeeeeh, bah. I thought it was funny.

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Again. Funny story.

It was super cold at the store last Friday. When Candy came by the store she was literally shivering. She was getting goosebumps all over her arms and legs (Which I honestly thought was sooo cute but whatever.) and I couldn't stop laughing. (Who goes out in the rain in shorts, huh?) Anyway, I was holding her and she goes "Oh my god. You're so warm." and I held her even tighter. Then she goes "Taisan, so soft and so delicate it melts in your mouth." and I'm like what?! And I turn around and I see that she read this description thing for taisan. And I go "I can't believe you're reading the description of taisan while I'm holding you!" And she starts giggling like crazy. And her laugh is sooo contagious I start laughing like crazy too. Am I like taisan? Wait. Don't answer that.

God, I love her. I do. :)

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Speaking of how I love her...

She hung out the store (Actually, she just hung out at the register where I was.) that afternoon. Then she had to leave and I just left the store to walk her out.

"I love how you just walk out." she tells me. (Yeeaah. Score one for me. *smug*) And I just smile at her. I was walking with her and I just...

When we got to the bus stop she says to me "You look mad depressed." (That's because I was. You know how I said she's get fired? She did.) And she holds me. When she lets go, I hold her again. I don't know. Then, I just take her chin in my hand... and... I missed.

*sigh* Yeah. I'm out of practice. LOL

*buries face in pillow and screams* Somebody kill me.

I love her. But I'm crazy. And crazy is sooo unattractive.

*buries face in pillow and screams*

The ball is officially in her court.

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Not everything in my life is a total tragedy. :)

Okay. It was Thursday when Mai and I started worrying that I was getting fired. I mean, they really don't have a reason to fire me. I am never late. I do what I'm told. I don't sit around like some folks. I am uber nice to the customers. Wala silang masasabi sa'kin. I am not a bad employee. But the thing is, when I came into the office that day to get some change for my register, Emilee asked me "How many credits to you need to finish college?" And I said "A lot. I plan on starting over." And then she says "When are you going back to school?" and I go "Maybe next year. In the fall." And then Eddy interrupts us because in the time that I was gone, there's already a pile up in the register so I had to leave. But before I left I asked her "Are you firing me?" (She's been firing a lot of people lately. I don't know why. But a lot of the "Pioneers" have already left.) And she answers me with "So you're not going back to school yet?"

I was sooo nervous. I need this job. What with Candy and my family (Unang-una talaga si Candy eh. Spoiled eh. LOL) to think about, I can't afford not to have a job. Lalo na ngayon, wala na ring job si Candy. Sa'kin na magpapabili yun ng mga abubot niya. LOL Ako naman kasi si Bili. LOL

Anyway, when I came in the next day, I asked Emilee why she was asking about college and she goes...

"We're opening a store and we need a manager in Queens..."

Okay. Everything after that? Background noise.

Unbelievable. So unbelievable.

I mean, me? A manager? Wow. And I'm only 19! Major wow. And I've only been working for them for a couple of months and they want to trust me with their second store here in the east? At the risk of sounding egoistic, I must be doing a fabulous job for them to love me this much. I am honestly very honored. Very, very honored.

But I had to say no. (Sige na, sige na, KJ na ako. Magsama-sama kayo ng mga kaibigan ko.) College is more important than being a manager of a store. At the end of the day it's not about how much money I made. It's whether I'm satisfied with what I have done. And college is first on my to-do list.

Emilee said they're going to put me at the bottom of their list (I'm still on it!) of potential managers, since I already said no. If they don't find anybody else suitable for the job they're going to ask me again, just in case I've changed my mind, which I won't.

You can't go to all the parties, but it's always nice to get an invitation.

(This is for you, hun. I told you. You make me want to be the best me. I love you.)

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To Bantay, for you are a romantic, just like me.
Pablo Neruda's Sonnet 17
I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose or topaz,
Or the arrows of carnation the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
In secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms,
But carries in itself the light of hidden flowers.
Thank to your love, a certain, solid fragrance,
Risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride,
So I love you for I know no other way

than this; where I do not exist; nor you;
So close that your hand on my chest is my hand;
So close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

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Is it you, hun? I'm crazy to think that this might be from you... But just in case it is, you're welcome, love. You're very welcome.

You have no idea how much I love you.

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kitten posted @ 12:32 PM