For Christmas I just want my old life back. I want to sit down and write about anything and everything. I want to go to a school that I love, and where I know the people love me. I want to sit in front of a piano and play scores and scores of music at a time. I want to not have a clue what I'm doing with my life and love it. I want to want to be able to cry and laugh and get mad when I want to. I want to get sick and not have a boss to take that against me. I want to be able to believe, and pray and believe. I want to sing at the top of my lungs and still make music. I want to take walks in the rain. I want to hold hands with somebody, kiss their fingertips, look them in the eyes and tell them I love them. I want to be smart and funny, have people fall crazily in love with me, break their hearts, and break mine in the process too. I want to sleep on the weekends. I want to not have the money to buy what I want. I want to be passionate about something other than my job. I want to be smart. I want to be smart. I want to be smart. I want things to make no sense whatsoever but end up alright.

For Christmas I just want my old life back. It doesn't have to be wrapped in holiday paper or come in a box. I just want it back. It can come through the mail or I could come pick it up somewhere. It doesn't matter, really. I just want my old life back.

I'm waiting for it. Please don't lemme down. I always come through for you. I think it's about time you did the same for me.


XOXO
Kitten :)

PS You still have around 27 days before Christmas. That's enough time, I think. But in case you need more time, try not to put too much pressure on me while I'm waiting. I am tired, you know.

Labels: feelings, nonsense

kitten posted @ 3:40 PM |



I took the SATs on Saturday. Eeeeeh, it wasn't that bad. Or should I say it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be? Bottomline, it went okay. The hard part is waiting for the results to come out. Wah.

My brother woke up early that day (as if he were taking the test with me) so he can give me an idea of how to "handle" his school. Alam niyo naman, Jersey City is a rough place. Plus, my brother's school has the highest crime or violence rate... something like that.

It was nice being surrounded by that much energy again. While we were waiting for room assignments I kept thinking how it was almost like I was back in school with all the people and their friends and all the ladies with their boyfriends and lahat lahat na. I can't wait to go back to school. (How many times have I said that?)

Later that night, my friends and I went down to Minado for some fabulous dinner. I don't like Japanese but they talked me into it. It was sooo great. Ang laki na ng tiyan ko pagkatapos! (Major ew but someone threw up after dinner. Kain kasi ng kain eh. So funny. Kung di ko lang siya mahal eh!) I also took an unexpected call in the middle of dinner. (Oooh. Sino yun? Lol) It was a good way to wrap up my well-deserved, I-will-definitely-resign-if-you-don't-give-me-one day off.

So yeah. I have to put one up for Nov.4, 2006. It was such a great day to be me.

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*sigh*

Candy has been bugging me to go down their store. But it's such a hike from the Square, there is no way I'm going there. Kaya lang, ilang beses na naming pinag-awayan at pinagtalunan at pinag-Haaay... When she asked me to go there Monday, I just had to say yes.

Mai and I were asked to open up the store, which of course means that we should have gotten off early that day. Unfortunately, we had a lot of things to do so we had to stay until around 5.30.

So we were in such a hurry we ran after ten emmies just to get downtown. Shempre, ang Fates ay against me. Hindi kami maka-sakay sakay (Parang Pinas ah.) hanggang mga 6. We arrived Downtown around 6.15 and we started running towards Montgomery which happens to be so, so, sooo far from where the bus stops. Anyway, we were literally running through the city that we were panting when we got to the restaurant. Sabi ko kay Mai, Dito muna tayo. Nakakahiya naman. Mukha tayong galing ng kunsanmang lupalop.. Mai wasn't laughing though. She was sooo tired.

I rang Candy's phone but she wouldn't pick up (Stupid bitch. Lol). We decided we'd just go in there, bahala na si Batman. I went inside and, though she had her back turned, this unreal warmth swept over me. I kept telling myself, This is why I bother. over and over and over again.

In a theatrical whisper I said, Candy! She turned and she was like OMG! and she ran to me. (There was a part of me that kept saying She is so going to get fired with what you're doing!) Then she hugged Mai too because I wouldn't be there (I'd get lost in the city!) if it weren't for Mai. Then I gave her the dvd and the cake I bought for her. (Something to spoil her diet. Lol) *hugging and squealing sequence*

We hung out at the place for about half an hour. I kept bugging Candy to do stuff with the register (There weren't a lot of customers when we were there so she couldn't show-off her cashiering skills. Lol) but she wouldn't. We ended up buying stuff just so she would work the POS. She's so cute when she's doing it too!

When I got home, I checked my phone and I had a bunch of messages from her. One of them read:

Will you in all seriousness marry me?

and I was just stunned. Completely dumbfounded. I didn't know what to say! But I typed up: In a heartbeat.

What more do I need to say? All the important words have already been said.

PS We're not engaged. It was just a question, and I just gave her an answer.

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What are the chances that the star I've been wishing on will fall for me?

Labels: love, stories, thoughts

kitten posted @ 2:23 PM |



When was the last time you sat down and watched a sunset? Or held somebody's hand? Or walked in the rain?

It has been too long for me. Simply too long.
kitten posted @ 7:51 PM |