I wish I could forget everything that has happened today.

My presentation for my research paper went well. The presentation went well. What didn't go well was the Q&A. Of course, I shouldn't complain. I did get comments such as "organized" and "thorough" but I guess the shock of how my research was received is what got to me.

I was on the stand for 20 minutes. It should have been over in 10. But it wasn't. The questions kept coming. I felt like I was in the middle of the ocean, a large rock tied to one of my ankles, and I was struggling for air, struggling to stay on the surface. I am pretty sure at more than one point, I shouted. I had the answers to the questions. I just couldn't figure out why people seemed to be attacking me. Maybe that's just my persecution complex talking.

After that horrendous experience, Andy picked me up and we headed out to Steven's place to meet up before going to the Met. I got motion sickness, which was awful. And I was no fun. Andy was no fun either since he was worried about me. And I now realize I've become one of those annoying girlfriends who spoil the fun. Yep. I'm now officially a fun-sucker.

Oi.

If it weren't for Andy, this day would have been a total mess. He was optimistic about today's presentation. He held my hand throughout the car and Met experience, drove like a grandpa on trip back. He's awesome.

I just wish he was around. That way, this day could end with one of the few people that make everyday worth living...

Labels: pissed

kitten posted @ 9:54 PM |

1. I'm having a fat day.
2. My credit card company will be issuing a different credit card for yours truly due to the fact that, at a certain time today, a lovely $39.71 purchase was made at, where else, Palma de Mallorca, Spain. WTF?! Seriously. WTF?! But besides that, now I have to go file a claim for the $39.71 that was charged on my card, and blah blah blah. I really don't have time to deal with their shit right now. MEH.
3. I should be doing my research paper + annotated bibliography + outline for English but I'm too goddamn lazy and f*cking upset to do it.
4. I haven't heard from Andy the whole day. This is the worst part. I need him to make my day better. *weeps*

So there. My life is miserable.

NOTE: You don't want to piss me off. Right now, I'm so high-strung I'll snap at anything that moves.

Labels: pissed

kitten posted @ 9:44 PM |



It has only been two months since Andy and I started going out, and yet it feels like we've spent an entire lifetime together. I guess, in many ways, that is more of a good thing than a bad thing.

Last night, I was with the girls and I was trying to explain to them how perfect my relationship with Andy is. I kept hesitating because I know that they would not understand. I kept hesitating because it seemed grossly unfair that I should find such a wonderful man in a world of assholes. When I finally blurted out the words, I was met with some rolling eyes and "Give it a few more months."

Today, Andy told me that he was trying to explain to Mike the concept of a soulmate. He, too, was met with resistance when he started talking about our relationship. I guess people have to experience the bliss, our bliss, before they can understand what it is we mean when we say that "our relationship is perfect."

Looking at my friends' relationship, I'm somewhat afraid that my relationship with Andy will turn ugly over time. But then, for some reason, I feel more certain that the chances of that happening are probably two out of ten. Think about it this way: When you find the one for you, won't you want to hold on to them forever?

I don't know what I've done to deserve this. But thanks to the Supreme Being. :)

Labels: love

kitten posted @ 10:01 PM |



I wish I could trade in all the love I feel in my <3 for some not-so-common sense.

Labels: thoughts

kitten posted @ 7:40 PM |