Monday, February 27, 2006
The Latest with Kitten - again
Naku... State of emergency na sa Pilipinas. At nalulungkot ako. Kasi habang yung mga Pilipino nandun sa Pilipinas, ako andito sa New Jersey, ineenjoy ang patapos nang winter. :(
I was on my way home from NY yesterday and I couldn't help but feel that I've abandoned the Philippines. I mean, sure, I didn't have a choice when it all comes down to it, but still... I can't help but feel that I betrayed my role as a Filipino. Naks. Umarya nanaman po ang pagiging makabayan ko.
On the lighter side of the news, my cousin celebrated her 17th birthday last Saturday. I am proud to say that I finally have my first (is that right?) official crush here. *blush*
Okay, details. His name is Greg. He's Fil-Am (Yey!). He's 23. he's old, I know. But he has a decent job, my kuya works with him, and makes, uh, quite a lot of money. (Yun naman pala! LOL.) He's tall, well, for me. :)
So ayun. Birthday ng cousin ko kaya shempre, partaaaaay! Di joke lang. We had dinner at their place. Tapos, I was baby-sitting my baby cousins (I know what you're thinking. What am I doing baby-sitting in a party, right?). And then this guy in a pink shirt and a navy blue NY cap walks by. I was like, Hell he's gorgeous!
After a while, my Kuya Ray calls me into the kitchen so we can do some drinking. Lo and behold, he was there. My gave me a look that said Hot, huh? And all I could do was flash a smile. Then we started giggling (oh, yes. How adorable, two giggly girls. LOL.) for no reason, or there probably was a reason, I just don't know it.
Then Greg goes, Who's your friend, Rache? So my cousin tells him I'm her cousin. He comes up to me, puts one of his arms around me and says So, you're the crazy cousin I've been hearing about! I almost died. I laughed and told him that no, I wasn't the crazy cousin he's been hearing about. I'm the very crazy cousin no one likes to talk about! Everyone in the kitchen laughed.
My cousin and I had a couple of drinks then I went back to baby-sitting my cousins. Tapos, he starts hanging out with my little cousins and me. Nung una, umiyak pa yung mga pinsan ko! He's a bit scary kasi with his height and everything. But I told my cousins, it's okay, ganyan. Tapos okay na and he literally hung out with the babies. Funny.
At around midnight, my cousins were asleep and I was left to hang out with my Kuya Ray, Rache and Greg. Tapos tipsy na si Greg, nakakatawa. Then we start talking about our personal lives and stuff. When the conversation died down he said, Man, I don't know who I like better, your cousin or your sister! Wee.
Wee. Ang cute niya. Ang gago niya. Crush ko siya! LOL.
Shout outs:
PamS Okay naman ang mga Americans! Mahirap nga lang intindihin yung iba nilang sinasabi! Damn their accent!
Doms Having a blast? More like trying to have a blast. :) Anyway, anu na bang nangyayari jan sa Philippines? Isang linggo pa lang akong nawala eh nagkagulo na! :(
Tin I miss you too. I hope you're doing okay. :) Summer's coming up, yay! :)
Gaby Yep, I got n LJ. I told you I'd start an account. :D Hey, I read what you wrote about me in your blog. Thanks. >:D< You're one of my best friends too. :-*
Nolan Haha. I can fly you, if you want! :D I'm kidding. :D Hope we can meet some time. :)
PamQ Yeah, hindi unlimited, pero okay lang. :D At least nakausap kita! :D Yeah, we can tell Crystal about NY in December. it won't be too hard for her since she's already staying in NY, :) hope to hear from you again. :D
Kaldereyta Mi!!! Sobrang miss na kita! Kamusta ka na? Sorry, di kita natetext. I don't have a local line yet eh. I'll get one soon para matext na kita! Love you, bez. :D
kitten posted @ 4:34 PM |
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
The Latest with Kitten
Hey! I'm glad I finally have the chance to go online and update this thing. :)
I'm in my tita's place. Anyway, so far things have been great. The weather's kinda different here though. It's literally very cold here. But it's super clean (Alas, the Philippines is not clean.) and the people are nice. Hell nice. You don't have those... problematic types. :) I want you to read my friend's entry, the one about Asians, then come back here to my page.
Assuming you've read my friend's entry, I've got to tell you something. My cousin is sooo like that. It's kinda annoying when I think about it. It's like I wanna ask the same question Pam asked Are you trying to be black? Of coursem I dare not ask. We're just starting to get close again. And she doesn't have a girl her age in our family so I'm being nice. Besides, she's so much fun. Haha. I now have a smoking buddy, nice. :)
I slept over at her place two nights in a row and we had a blast. The things we did, I'm not allowed to put here. I might get arrested. Haha. And I love her now. I mean, you know, I've always wanted a sister. You know, someone I am actually related to. I guess I have that now. Yey for me. :)
Anyway, as soon as I have the time to update this again, I'm gonna write another entry. :)
One more thing, New Jersey is perfect for me... if only I could take all the people I love with me here...
kitten posted @ 5:28 PM |
Friday, February 17, 2006
Last na talaga...
For real this time, this is the last time I post... for now! LOL. But as soon as I get the chance, I will blog. Blog! Blog! BLOG!!!
For the mean time, busy yourself with this link Click me
Or you can
- Leave a message in the tagboard, which is encouraged and demanded! LOL.
- Text me at +639178054049 Piso lang. Yey. :)
I'll miss all of you, shucks.
kitten posted @ 10:51 AM |
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Rockabye
This is probably the last blog I post for a while. I don't know how long it will take before I can blog again. It's complicated... Tsk.
Anyway, above are the names of everyone I want to thank. It doesn't matter they'll read this or not. I want to thank them just the same.
Some of them I only met once; some of them I spent almost my entire life with; some of them I love so much, and some of them I equally hate; some of them have seen me at my best; some of them saw me at my worst. But all of them had helped make this place home, and they are family, one way or another.
Thank you. I will miss you. I will miss all of you...
I wish I could talk to you. Whenever I do, all my troubles melt away...
Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye
~Shawn Mullin's Lullaby
kitten posted @ 7:24 AM |
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Secrets.
Last night, I hung out with my cousins. At first, it was harmless laughing. After a while it got lame so we decided to take a walk. We got to our village's cliff and stood there taking in the view. Then my cousin, Kuya Kris, took out a pack of Marlboro Lights and handed one to my best friend in the family, Tayon. I was shocked. I couldn't believe what was happening. Then Kuya Kris handed me the pack...
Is this a test? I don't know. But I didn't take it. Tayon was laughing. She told me "If you wanna smoke and not be found out, be a doctor. I got caught once and you know what I told my mom?Ma, ilang taon akong nag-aral para maging doctor? Pagkatapos magsisigarilyo lang ako? Ma naman.
The hell with this family. We all have our secrets.
What's yours?
kitten posted @ 8:02 PM |
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Take me away... again.
I learned something very important today: I am very hard to please. It takes a lot to please me. I yearn for perfection. I demand it. I won't settle for anything less.
Started a Multiply account. Did I mention that yet? It doesn't have anything in it except music. LOL. Needed to store my Christian music somewhere. LOL.
Click me.
As Valentine's draws near, all I could think about is how miserable mine is going to be. While others are celebrating with lovers and friends, I'll be here at home, doing some last minute-packing (And guiltily unpacking some stuff, too).
Stigmatized. That's what we were. That's. What. We. Were.
Umiyak ako. Kagabi na lang ako umiyak ng ganon. As in hagulgol talaga... Kasi naisip ko, tapos na ang misyon ko sa buhay mo, kaya ngayon... wala na. Hindi na tayo nag-uusap, hindi na nagtetext.
You said you'd never be like my other ex's but you already are...
kitten posted @ 8:23 AM |
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Take me away...
So, natawa ako dito. Partly because I'm guilty of some of these (like hinting, bringing up things from 6months back), partly because I've heard some of my guy friends complain about the same things, and partly because I agree. LOL.
Finally, the guys' side of the story. We always hear"the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note...these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.
1. Shopping is NOT a sport.*
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem.
See a doctor.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. -->LOL.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.
1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us. --> True. Come to think of it, it's a lose-lose thing for them. See, you think you're fat and you go asking him if he thinks you're fat. If he tells you you're not, you'd think he's lying and get mad. If he tells you that you are fat, you get mad coz he doesn't appreciate you and he thinks you're ugly.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really.
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.
1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
*emphases care of yours truly
Kahapon, nasa Bench ako, nagtitingin ng wallet para sa kapatid ko. Eh hindi naman ako wallet person diba? So di ko alam kung paano malalaman kung pambabae or panlalaki yung wallet. So... sobrang laki ng problema ko. Eh may ale sa tabi ko, naka-uniform ng bisor. So tinanong ko siya : Nakasort po ba ito ng pambabae tsaka panlalaki? Eh dahil nakasaksak ang earphones ko sa tenga ko nun di ko naintindihan yung sinabi niya. Minouth read ko na lang at ang pagkakaintindi ko ay Oo. Sa
Anak ng tipaklong! Nakakahiya! As in! As IN!
AS IN!!!
And I didn't only ask her once, I asked her twice! My god. I wanted to die. I just walked out of the shop in a hurry. LOL.I took a jeep home yesterday. There was a man beside me. In front of us was a fellow Iska who wore a pretty short skirt. To tell you honestly, she wasn't all that pretty but the man beside me kept staring at her, almost falling off her seat from trying to see what was in between those legs. It was just sick. *gag* (Some men have no respect for women.) I wanted to shout at him:
Why don't you just get down to the floor and pry them open, for crying out loud!
What a pervert. It was disgusting. *gag*I got to school right on time to pick up my transcript yesterday. I called for Ma'am Judith and she approached me with this grin on her face. She then said Kurotin kita eh. Ah, shusme. Close pala tayo. LOL. But it was okay. Pagkatapos niyang i-rush ang transcript ko (na dapat two months ang processing at ginawa niyang 3 weeks *bows down*) dapat lang maging okay yun. LOL.
I was lying on my bed last night and staring up at the ceiling, when I realized this: For the first time in a very, very long time, I'm going to a place where I have only a few friends and I might as well be *sigh* alone.
Wala lang. Nakakatuwa. Kasi pinupuntahan niya yung blog ko. LOL. Nakakatuwa kasi unang-una nakaka-14 visits na siya ngayong linggong ito. Pangalawa kasi ginagawa niyang tambayan ang blog ko. LOL. Hindi naman ako kinikilig nito? LOL.
This time all I want is you
There is no one else who can take your place...
...I've seen it all and it's never enough
And it keeps leading me to you
Take me away...
kitten posted @ 8:09 AM |
Thursday, February 09, 2006
I'm upset.
Let me just say that after two days of not even getting past sleep stage 1, I have finally gotten the best sleep I've had ever. Langya, naniginip pa nga ako eh! (Stig. Naka-abot pa ako ng REM. *sigh* Ang sarap talaga ng tulog ko.)
Before I went to bed I was doubtful that I'd be able to get some sleep. After all, if I can make it through two days without sleeping, I figured one night won't make such a big diff. But my friend made me promise to get some sleep as soon as I could. I guess that's why when I lay myself in my bed, even if my mind was active, I heard this voice saying You promised you'd get sleep. You ought to at least try. So, ayon. I got the sleep I needed.
To be totally honest my body was already malfunctioning last night. I was talking to a couple of people in ym and I was in typo-galore. My body really needed to rest. I'm glad it already has. :)
Okay, so. Naiinis ako sa'yo. Sige na, tatay na kita. Pero naman. Pakigalang naman yung kakaunting privacy na meron ako.
Hindi naman siguro mahirap yung hinihingi ko eh. Ang hinihingi ko lang ay wag kang mangialam ng gamit ko. Isipin mong mahanap mo yung lighter na pinakatatago-tago ko? E, jusko, nasa pinakasuluk-sulukan yun ng kwarto ko! Ibig sabihin, naghalungkat ka talaga. Mahiya ka naman sa balat mo.
E ano naman kung may lighter ako? Gusto ko ng lighter eh. I like flames.Ang banat mo sa'kin:
Naninigarilyo ka pa siguro.
Anak ng! Pinagmamalaki ko nga na as of today ay 43 days na akong nicotine free!43!!!
Tapos babanatan mo ako na naninigarilyo na ulit ako. Tsk.At may pahabol pa:
If you're telling me you just like lighters, you're not making any sense.
Well, father, let me ask you: Who made you the expert on sense? Fine. You wanna talk sense? Let's talk sense!!!You're dragging us, your family, half-way across the globe to what you may call greener pastures. We're leaving everything we have established here for a life there that doesn't even exist.
This is sensible to you? Shit. Yun na lang. Shit.
Pero nung nagsasasalita ka sa'kin (habang nagluluto ako ng leche flan) tahimik lang ako. Tahimik na nagngingitngit. Tahimik na nagagalit. Tahimik na nag-iisip: The moment I'm allowed to leave this family, the moment I can keep myself alive (whichever comes first) that'll be the last they see of me. There's no room in this house for someone like me.
kitten posted @ 6:11 AM |
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Pagod.
You are Envy!
Wow... what a dreamer. Always wanting what you
can't have, and always dreaming of having
more then you do. It's not the worst sin, and
we're all guilty of it - but you take it to
the extreme! You are prone to depression,
often from things you can't obtain. Be a bit
more positive, you have a lot that others
want too - so don't sit there being all
green! On the positive side, you tend to be a
smart person - and can often achieve the
goals you set yourself.
Congratulations on being the overall harmless, and
pretty normal one of the 7 deadly sins :)
?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??
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Every part of my body is sore. I mean sore. I haven't had any sleep for two days now. Kahit minutes lang, wala talaga. Ilang beses ko nang chinarge ang player ko at ilang beses ko na rin itong naabutan na maubusan ng baterya. Nakakaawa naman siya. Wala pa siyang pahinga, tulad ko.
My mom and I started preparing for next week's despidida. She had me do the fish. God, it was sooo hard. My eyes hurt from lack of sleep and what she wanted me to do was *drum roll* take out all the bones so that we can make relleno. I wanted to complain, but I knew better. So I sat there for what seemed like forever and took out the bones of eight large fish. *sigh*
Come to think of it, I actually feel better now. Better than how I felt last night, that is. One word: dumped.
Di ko rin naman sasabihin
Wag mo nang itanong sa akin
At di ko na iisipin...
Swerte, lumabas yung parents ko kagabi. I had our maid buy me a couple of beers. After I finshed everything (I didn't drink too many, mind you), my head started to throb. Tama si Cat. Pag may problema ka, mas madali kang tamaan. It would have been okay, if I could get to sleep. But no. I was wide awake the whole night, my head throbbing.
Kaya ba mga bandang 5.30 nagpapakulo na ako ng tubig ng makainom na ng tsaa.
I have one reason to smile, though: *toot* texted me kanina. Wee. :)
Di pa ako bumibili ng phone. LOL. Paano ako magro-roaming niyan? :(
kitten posted @ 6:32 AM |
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
My Day. Cupid's Magic. Frances Althea.
My day
- Skip yoga.
What can I say? I feel lazier than ever today. - Pig out.
I ate an entire footlong by myself. Hello more lovehandles. Tsk. - Make a new layout.
As far as I'm concerned this began like, what, January? But since my computer conveniently crashed last week, I am back to the drawing board. Oh yes. - Magmaktol kasi hindi pinayagan na dalhin ang Eheads at Bamboo cds.
Para akong bata. Nagmamaktol ako kasi hindi ako pinayagan na magdala ng kahit anong cd sa bagahe ko. Di daw kasi kami nakakasiguro na original nga iyon. So para wala na lang maging problema, wag na lang dalhin. Anak ng tipaklong. - Talk to her about that thing.
This is my day. I didn't do much, and to tell you honestly, I don't intend to. I'm having one of my bad days. *sigh* Today is a terrible, terrible day... But not for someone I know.
Well, if you will kindly refer to my previous post, you will be able to recall that yesterday I told my friend to just go ahead and tell the girl she likes about how she felt.
It seems love is in the air. :) It went well. So well. Terrific even. And Cupid has done his thing again.
I wonder if he'll work his magic for me... :)
Please, oh please, oh please... :)
Congratulations to DJ and Josette!
They now have a bouncing, baby girl named Frances Althea. :)
kitten posted @ 5:38 AM |
Monday, February 06, 2006
Ramblings
Ah! Today, I have a lot to say, so if you don't have the time and/or the patience to read, I suggest you close the window right now. :) (And, yes, that was a smile. Today, I'm not the Princess of Darkness.)
First part of the agenda: Stampede
Like I was scared. (Ew. Did that just sound the way I think it did?) And I mean it too. After a while, the fear was fading and I came to an important realization:
People do have the might to come after what they want.
So why the hell is the country suffering?! I mean, where's all this might when we need effective change? *makes a face* I can't believe this.I invaded into my friend's blog kanina and I would like you to do the same. Click me.
Assuming you have gone to my friend's blog and we successfully invaded his world some more *snigger* here's what I have to say: Nakakalungkot. I'm upset for a lot of reasons. For one, some (some, not all) Filipinos are disappointing. *palms head* I'm not just talking about the people who, instead of looking for jobs, were there in Ultra to join the lottery of a lifetime (Well, that's what it is.). I'm also talking about the people who organized this event and obviously failed to plan ahead. Kung baga, they were a little too optimistic. They didn't anticipate this because that's what they were - too optimistic. *sigh* Kasama narin sa mga disappointing people ang mga taong nagrereklamo sa nangyari, at kasama na ako dun. I could be doing something useful right now instead of pointing out their faults. But no. I'd rather be the Princess of Darkness and do this. The hell with me. (That didn't sound right, now did it?)
For another, wala akong magawa. Gusto ko baguhin lahat ng trash na meron ngayon dito sa (as Ting put it in his blog) God-forsaken country na ito. Pero wala akong magawa. Wala. Maybe that's the reason I have resorted to bad-mouthing this country. I'm just so powerless that I hope pointing out all this nonsense might make up for my inability to do anything useful. And isn't that sad? To think that you're powerless to do anything useful for your country? God, it's a tragedy. (Especially for an Iska.) (Yes, I still think I am an Iska.) At hindi lang ako ang walang magawa. Pare-pareho tayong walang magawa. Think of it this way, if we could do something to change all this do you actually think we'd prolong the agony and let things get this bad? I think not.
*sigh* Ngayon, naiisip ko na malaki akong irony. Kung di mo maintindihan kung bakit ako irony, balikan mo lang yung mga tinype ko kanina at malalaman mo. Kung di mo parin malaman, patulong ka na sa iba. :)
Second part of the agenda: Go ahead and do it.
So, para maintindihan niyo yung susunod na ramblings ko, papabasa ko sa inyo ang ilang bahagi ng pag-uusap namin ng isa kong malapit na kaibigan. :) [*-yun ung kaibigan ko. kuting_kuneho-ako yun] [yung mga emphasis ako na lang ang naglagay niyang mga yan.]
*: ...hey, what if you start seeing someone in a different light? like, you let go of this person for some stupid reason, and then realize that you actually like that person. what're you gonna do about it?
kuting_kuneho: bang your head on the wall is a good start. grab coke and vodka. then walk up to that person's door. :D
kuting_kuneho: i'm kidding.
kuting_kuneho: let go... let go as in... you left this person for someone else?
*: no, i just didn't feel the same way then. c'mon, for another person? i don't even think i've ever been in love lol banging my head does sound good now
kuting_kuneho: well, so you like that person NOW, right? does that person like you? coz if that person'll just dump you you might as well forget about it. :D haha. this is just the coke talking. :D
...
kuting_kuneho: well, let me ask you this. can you tell if she likes you now? even in the slightest? i think she does. *shrugs*
*: well i hope so, im just scared. i mean how often do you find someone like her? just the fact that she's a girl's already a big thing. i just don't want to put myself out there., i've kind of been avoiding her. i didn't even invite her to the movie i watched with my friends last friday. stupid=me
kuting_kuneho: it happens. :D anyway, if you really like her as much as i think you do, then i'd say just go ahead and tell her. don't think about it too much though coz you might chicken out. :P just do it. :))
*: i'll take your advice. i just called her. thank god she didn't pick up! omg! i was stuttering and all i said was i need to talk to you tomorrow and hung up! omgomgomg
...
kuting_kuneho: ...i'm leaving. pero i think we have a chance to make it if we want to.
kuting_kuneho: but. god. i don't know.
kuting_kuneho: whew!
*: well, from experience i wouldn't. because half of my one and only relationship was long distance, and she ended up hurting me really bad, and there was a guy before me. but i guess if you guy's are strong enough to come back together after all these years, then you're strong enough to get through this
kuting_kuneho: i haven't spoken to her in a while. see, we've been fighting a lot ... i guess i'm scared.
kuting_kuneho: *headdesk*
*: im sorry but i think it's funny that we're in both in a dilemma lol. go for it if it makes you happy, and if you really love her...
kuting_kuneho: it is... *sigh* i think we could make it work. i really do. i just don't know what she thinks. :P
*: well, you told me to go for it, it'll be good if you would too
*: :)
kuting_kuneho:
i hate it when people do that. throwing things right back at me.
kuting_kuneho: :)
*: im sorry, it's true though...
...
Right after that last message the girl my friend liked called and god knows what happened. My friend had to go offline and I can only wish that only the best happened. *crosses fingers*
So, on to business, gusto ko siyang makasama ulit. I must be crazy, thinking that we can make it through. But love makes you do crazy things and, for the nth time, I think I'm in love.
So ngayon eh nagtatalo ang aking mga damdamin. Gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na siya na siguro ang pinakamahalagang bahagi ng buhay ko pero, ano ba, di ko pwede/kayang sabihin iyon. Tss. Pero ang lakas ng loob kong sabihin sa kaibigan ko na Go ahead and tell her... Just do it. *headdesk*
Nasisiraan na siguro ako ng bait. Anak ng tipaklong. Bakit naman ngayon ko pa naramdaman ito para sa kaniya? Ay, oo nga pala. Kasi nung huling beses na maramdaman ko ito para sa kaniya, huli na ang lahat... May iba na siyang kasama. :(
*sigh* I need a new and better hobby. Something that will effectively take my mind off of you.
We're leaving! Wah. Feb something na ngayon. Eh Feb 18 kami aalis eh! Anak ng tipaklong! :(
So, ayan, nabuhay nanaman ang desire ko na lumayas dito sa bahay namin at hindi magpakitang muli sa kanilang muli nang malaya kong magawa ang lahat ng gusto kong gawin! Tapos bigla kong naisip: Ano ba ang gusto kong gawin?
I'm afraid, right now, I don't have an answer to that question. :( Kaya, gusto ko mang lumayas na at gawin lahat ng gusto ko, hindi pwede - literal.
*sigh* Where are the cute, little teddies when you need them? *weeps*
Napapagod na si James Blunt kakakanta ng You're Beautiful sa player ko. Kawawa naman siya.
But it's time to face the truth: I will never be with you...
Sabi nga nung friend ko, "It's the story of my life."
kitten posted @ 4:58 AM |
Saturday, February 04, 2006
I'm pathetic.
I'm pathetic. I spent three hours of my time online staring at this picture. I feel so... hopeless. And. Pathetic.
I need a new hobby.
While I was staring at your picture, I realized how much I still love you and how stupid I am to have let you go. You ARE the one that got away, aren't you? I think you are.
kitten posted @ 10:24 AM |
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
*sigh* I love you, by.
I've never been this bored since summer. Ahem. Come to think of it, summer vacation na sa mundo ko. Go figure.
Anyway, I was so bored that I decided I'd make something. Here's a picture of what I did.
It took me the whole afternoon to finish it. La lang. :)
My eyes gaze at the starry sky
Looking for a familiar twinkle
My hand intertwines
With ghost ones that graze mine
My cheeks are kissed
By lips that come
And go with the wind
Every waking minute
Is haunted by the dream
Of the love that could have been
When much was gained
Must you mourn for the little
That was lost?
I don't know if you'd get the chance to read this. I know you stopped visiting my blog a long, long time ago. But just in case, this one's for you. I miss you... I love you. I always have. I guess I always will...
kitten posted @ 8:39 AM |
