Thursday, August 31, 2006
Naiinggit ako.
Naiinggit ako. Sobraaa. Gusto ko na rin pumasok sa school!
Yung mga kaibigan ko nagsisipasok na sa paaralan tapos ako tambay parin sa bahay, pwera na lang kung may trabaho.
Nalulungkot nanaman tuloy ako. Lalo na kasi kahapon kausap ko si My tapos inaaway niya ako dahil umalis daw ako ng U.P. Para naman kasing meron akong choice... Pero ayun.
Feeling ko tuloy, ang laki-laki ng nawala sa'kin. Masama pa dun, yung mga magulang ko, walang paki-alam.
I spent the best years of my life grooming myself for a future I will never get to have. Sayang. I had everything worked out. Everything was written down, planned. Ako na lang ang kulang.
Maybe people should live from day to day. No ten-year career plans. No five-point strategies. Life will always bite us in the ass when we think too far ahead.
Why is it that I try to steer my own path but I never end up where I want to be?
Labels: feelings, me, thoughts
kitten posted @ 10:32 AM |
Monday, August 28, 2006
Take a ride... [edit]
Love is an emotional rollercoaster ride. I've been on it too many times. I want to stay as far away from it as possible, thank you.
But then you come and I'm completely smitten!
Maybe one last ride wouldn't hurt...
Corny na kung corny. Basta ako, I'll win you.
kitten posted @ 4:58 PM |
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Imagine me and you... [edit]
My life's new theme song: So Happy Together by The Turtles. *wide, WIDE grin*
I was thinking about running away the other day. Long story. Anyway, I was just sooo mad. I was literally looking for someplace to crash. Then my youngest brother comes up to me and says: Ate, galingan mo sa work para maumpisahan na natin yung condo mo.
Gusto ko kasi ng condo for a business. Taas ng pangarap noh? Pero it's better than food, where people might not like your cooking, and clothes, where it's hard to keep up with the times. Condo kasi people have to live somewhere. Always. Kesho mahal pa yan, meron at merong titira jan. Anyway, we've been talking about starting it up and my brother wants to invest (Kala mo naman ang dami naming pera.).
I almost gave it up...
God thinks He's so funny. Just when I'm about to do something, He throws me reasons to change my mind. And it always works.
Thanks, Dean. You saved my life yet again.
kitten posted @ 12:04 PM |
Monday, August 21, 2006
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People come in and out of our lives. They stay for as long as they can and then they just leave. I think it's God's way of making sure you never have too many people in your life. That way you can give each and every one the attention they deserve.
It has never occured to me that I come in and out of other people's lives.
*sigh*
Life is just... great. Simply fantabulous. :)
Day off ko ngayon. Isipin mong inasaha-asahan ko ang day-off na ito pagkatapos ngayon, wala akong magawa. Ayus.
Kilala niyo ba si Cristina sa Grey's Anatomy? Nakikita ko yung sarili ko sa kaniya. Sa character lang ah. I can only wish to be like her academically. *shrugs*
Something is seriously wrong with me. I'm given a free day and I have nothing to do. My work is my life, it turns out. I guess it has always been that way.
Kawawa naman ako. I don't have a life. Waaah.
Okay. Gossip time.
Sir Ray (obviously one of my bosses) is gay. I mean he's gay. And it's really not a bad thing. I actually find it... comforting.
ANYWAY, last Friday while Gil and I were smoking sa stairs ng staffhouse, I overheard him talking to his alleged boyfriend sa cell niya. Sort of. Actually, nagbubu-bulong siya. Di ko mashado maintindihan. Tska nakikinig ako ng tunes ko. (Sabi nga ni Gil "You're so chill with your tunes. *wrinkles his nose*" Sagot ko naman, "When I'm listening to my music, everything else is 'Wahwah-wah-wahwah-wahwah-wah.'")
ANYWAY, nung natapos na magyosi si Sir Ray, papaakyat na siya ng staffhouse nang marinig ko ang sinabi niya sa alleged boyfriend niya:
"Whether you like it here or not. It all comes down to us."
Okay, baka malabo, ganito kasi yun. Si Sir Ray taga-LA talaga. He manages the ever-so-nice Red Ribbon in Hollywood. Now, dahil nagbukas ang RR dito sa East, isa siya sa mga napadala para mag-pioneer (Kasi exceptional talaga siya. Naman, gay na Leo pa. San ka pa? Rarr.) Figure out the rest.
Tapos nung bumaba siya ulit para magyosi (kami ni Gil hindi pa umaalis sa spot namin. Haha.) sabi naman niya:
"Kung hindi ka tatawag para magsorry, wag ka na lang tumawag."
Ayun. Reaction namin? "Aww. They're fighting!" Which is weird kasi anu bang paki namin. Tska "Ang angas ni Sir Ray."
ANYWAY, I don't expect you to feel fuzzy the way I do. Pero... Well. You would have had to experience what it's like to be in a gay relationship to realize how moments like that... change you.
Kudos to Sir Ray.
kitten posted @ 10:58 AM |
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Some birthday... [edit]
Today I turned the big 1-9. No biggie, really. As my friends have put it, I am an emancipated adult. Heaven knows why it's emancipated.
I miss my friends in the Philippines. It's my birthday and I want to spend it with the most important people in my life. Or the life I knew when I lived in the Philippines. Sucks like hell.
Then again, it's not that bad. If it's worth mentioning, we played charades. That kinda cheered me up. I looove charades.
One more thing, I got one of my birthday wishes: I got a box of Capri from Allan. Wee. Love, love, love, love you Allan. :)
Boo. Boo. Boo. This day just sucks.
kitten posted @ 4:46 PM |
Friday, August 11, 2006
xoxo
First things first... Birthday ko na! Well, hindi pa. Pero malapit na. Ilang tulog na lang... :)
Did you hear about the terrorists apprehended at UK who were allegedly going to blow-up a plane to the US? Yeah. The people are making a big deal out of it, and are now currently referring to it as "another potential turning point".
How many turning points do you need to realize you're twirling yourself dizzy, America?
Dreams are stupid. And painful. I hate dreams. Effing dreams. *sobs*
Maybe it's just me PMS-ing.
I was watching Everybody Loves Raymond last night. It was the one where Deb got upset because she and Ray hardly ever talk anymore. Towards the end, they saw how Marie and Frank don't need to talk to anymore because of all the years they've been together. "They're so in-tune with each other" that silences are no longer uncomfortable.
Wala lang.
Ever had somebody like that? Someone who was so in-tune with you that you didn't need words?
Kudos to those who answered yes.
Labels: feelings, stories, thoughts
kitten posted @ 10:27 AM |
Monday, August 07, 2006
*prays*
Things do have their way of balancing things out. But, Lord, not like this. Sorry. I was fueled by anger and don't know what I was saying. If you could please change things, please, please do. I love being right, but not when it causes the people I love pain. Please. I'm sorry. I take everything back.
Labels: thoughts
kitten posted @ 10:52 AM |
Friday, August 04, 2006
Shit happens.
Yesterday, as I checked to see if any mail came in for me (as I have been doing for the past two excruciating weeks) and something did. It was my Capital One stuff. I don't know if you can imagine me scurrying to get the mail opener, but that was that. And when I finally got the envelope it opened *the Hallelujah chorus*... My application for a credit card was finally approved! I literally jumped up and down with joy, and the people around the house couldn't stop themselves from looking over my shoulder.
So eto na yung shit happens part.
I don't know if I've mentioned it before, but my father and I are the ones struggling to keep my family financially afloat right now. It's not easy, but we get by. Last night when he found out my CapOne finally got here (it was the first time he found out that I even applied for a CapOne) he was nonplussed. Possibly angry. And then he started to talk, which can be very annoying sometimes. He said that this was a terrible idea (thank you) and this would be another bill for us to take care of (thank you). Blah blah blah. He lost me at "this is a terrible idea." And he went into his banker mode and I can't understand a thing he says even if I try.
So today, instead of taking my brothers on a much deserved shopping spree, I am spending my day drawing flowers. Yes, flowers. I don't know what I'm going to with the card yet. I should probably send it back, I don't know.
Maybe things will balance itself out for my favor this time. Although I seriously doubt it.
kitten posted @ 1:20 PM |
Thursday, August 03, 2006
. [edit]
Heat wave, people. Heat wave. *sounds of searing*
Simple lang naman ang hinihingi ko sa'yo eh. Kapag minessage kita, message me back. Or at least have the decency to tell me you don't want to hear from me again. You always, always leave me hanging. And to think you messaged me first!
Ganyan ka naman eh. You're always so nice when you want something from me. But the moment you get what you want, you dump me in the nearest bin as if you wanted nothing to do with me in the first place.
You've been doing this to me for years but I never once complained. Now that I'm millions of miles away, f*ck it. I hate you.
You never really know how great a song is until you've listened to it a million times and realize you still love it.
I used to a lunatic from the gracious days...
No more I love yous
The language is leaving me...
Labels: stories
kitten posted @ 1:50 PM |
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Oh no.
Did you hear about Fidel Castro?
Rumor has it he has some degenerative disease. Please don't let it be so...
I'm worrying my butt off and the
DISCLAIMER: Forgive me. I am currently having my third cup of coffee.
kitten posted @ 3:38 PM |
