Wednesday, October 04, 2006
No more Coronas for me.
Again, no words...
I'm seeing her again today because we have to do her physics homework. I don't know if I'm up to it. But she needs me and I can't leave her hanging. I just can't.
The thing is, after what happened last night, I don't think I have the courage to look her in the eye again and act as if we're just friends. We were never really
just friends to begin with, but last night, I crossed the line. And it's not like I'm not sorry because I am. I just wish I could remember what really happened so that I could apologize for what I did and what I said
and mean it.Lesson learned today: Never, EVER drink. Not when you're upset. Not when you're happy. Or drink but don't get drunk. Bad things happen when you're drunk and you always end up regretting them...
For someone who hates people who drink, I sure can get drunk. *headpalm*
*deep, deep breath*
The worst isn't over. The way I see it, it's only just begun.
---------------I don't regret telling her. This just wasn't the way I wanted her to find out. Not when I'm drunk... God. No.
*heavy sigh*
---------------I was reading my past entries (like months back) and I found, interestingly, a piece of advice I could use.
from *sigh* dated June 9, 2006"PS If you want something badly, fight for it."
Talk about needing to take your own advice. *sigh*
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kitten posted @ 12:21 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.Draw and paint.Learn how to play Sudoku.- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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