Thursday, September 14, 2006

One word: Wow.

Before I give my kudos, I must first tell you the story.

My cousin Carlo has been bugging me about Gil because he apparently thinks Gil is gay. If I've told him once, I told him a million times to stay out of Gil's business. If Gil is indeed gay, it's not like it makes him less of a person. Right? Right.

Now, my cousin has never had the opportunity to ask Candace (who, I might mention, is bi) whether she really is bi, and whether Gil is gay. He cornered Candace that day, behind the refrigerated showcase and asked her. Now, I know this because Candace came up to me and told me about how rude my cousin was being. I felt really bad, and I apologized on his behalf.

I didn't notice Gil because he's usually loitering all over the store but when he finally came up behind the showcase, where my cousin was standing, I didn't think any of it.

Not until Gil came up to Carlo and said You gotta problem with me? And my cousin said something like Yeah coz you're a f*cking fag. Then everything happened so fast... There was shoving. And punching. And lots and lots of screaming. Gil even picked up a chair and he was about to hit Carlo with it but, thank God, Sir Ray intervened (and to think even Sir Ray is, you know, fruity.) and stopped the fight. Sort of. Gil was still yelling If you ever call me a fag again, I'm going to f*cking kill you.

That wasn't the end of it. At least not for Gil. Emilee told him to go home; he was really upset. (I would be too, honestly.) Candace and I walked him out of the store and he was going I'm going to get a friggin' bat and I'm going to beat the sh*t out him. Uber scary. But we talked him out of it. It was a bad idea. Besides, if you beat everyone who says something bad about you, you'd spend your life beating people up.

Now, kudos to Gil for standing up for himself. It has been nearly a week, but I still feel that he did the right thing. My cousin was asking for it, and he got it. Serves him right. Go Gil!!!

...
*sighs* No words. Just *closes eyes* this feeling that you give me...

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Okay, tanong: Kapag ba lasing ang tao sinasabi nila kung ano yung totoo nilang nararamdaman?

Ewan ko ba. Di na ako natuto. Bakit kasi nakikipagkaibigan ako sa mga taong umiinom. Pero ayun na nga. Bwiset. Sakit sa ulo.

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(Talking on cellphone. * is on the train from Bayonne.)
KITTEN: [checks if the cellphone batteries are dead] Hello?
*: What happened?
KITTEN: I thought I lost you.
*: Never.

(Still on cellphone. * is now in Downtown Jersey City.)
KITTEN: [upset] What do you want me to do?!
*: Love me forever.
KITTEN: [even more upset] What?!
*: Love me forever.


I'm tired of emotional rollercoaster rides. This set-up: it's convenient but it isn't easy. And there is no way I can tell you that it's not working for me without scaring you away...

Help.

Then again, as the French say it, aide toi!

Labels: feelings, love, stories

kitten posted @ 12:22 PM