I don't understand why happiness must be such an elusive thing for me. I always get teased. Happiness comes then it leaves as quickly as it came, and I am left with nothing but a disappointed feeling at the pit of my stomach. Maybe that's because I expected it to stay this time. I wanted it to last for a change. But it never does. And I never learn.

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This is the only thing that has gotten me through this week. Yet again, you prove yourself to be the sole reason I am here.

I bought Angel season3 for Candy. I've been bugging her to come by the store and see my "surprise". (The truth is, I wanted to break everything off that day. The dvd was supposed to be a parting gift.) I came in early that day, just because. Then she called me and told me she's coming in a little earlier than planned. No biggie, I thought. The sooner she comes, the sooner I can get this over with.

As expected, there were a lot of people in the store when she came in. Kee-tuhn. Hello, love. she said, and I couldn't stop myself from smiling. I looked up and said Gimme a sec. I just have to finish this. After everybody, I rushed to the office and got the dvd (Which, I put in this ugly Verizon bag because I don't have a small bag to put it into.).

When I came out of the office, she was looking at me like What the hell is it that you have for me now? and I start by saying I'm sorry. I don't have a bag for this. and I hand it to her and she was just... stunned. She was just staring at the package a held in my hand, completely at a loss for words. Take it. It's for you.

Oh, I could just eat you up. was what she said. And she ran to me, and held me tighter and closer than she ever had. She held me like she would never let me go and I made a silent wish that she never would... And I knew: I couldn't and I wouldn't stop loving Candy just because I was aching. I will go through the pain over and over and over again if it would mean I would see and make her that happy.

Okay. You can leave now. I said. And she was still squealing with delight. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen! I walked back to my register because Emilee was there. But instead of following me, she stayed there. Emilee! Emilee! Look what she got me. *koochie-koo voice* My baby. and she showed off her dvd. God, it gave me the most wonderful feeling in the world.

Then people started coming into the store so I was busy again, but Mai said Sige na. Ako na bahala dito. Tapusin mo na yung sa asawa mo. (Thanks Mai. You're my hero!) Candy's face was sooo red when she walked to my register.

Oh, Ki'en. Christmas came early this year. *gasp* I have to call all my friends! and she starts dialing away on her cell.

*sigh*

It wasn't long until she had to leave (because she was going to Gil's house to watch the dvd! *sigh*) And when she left, I told Mai, Did you see how happy she was? And Mai just beamed at me. And then I added, I would give anything to see her that happy again. And I would. I really, really would.

*sigh* God, I love her.

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kitten posted @ 10:50 AM