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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Bitter

Nakasakay ako sa bus pauwi. Nung huminto yung bus sa susunod na hintuan, may babaeng nakatayo, tapos parang nakikilala ko siya.

Lumundag ang puso ko. Nanghaba ang leeg ko. Nanlamig ang mga kamay ko. Si Candy ba yun?

Bigla kong naisip na hindi ako naka-ayos. Magulo ang buhok ko. Amoy palabok ako at empanada ako. At, OMG, ang suot ko. Hindi ako naka-bihis ng maayos!

Pag sakay niya ng bus, nakita ko yung mukha niya. Hindi pala siya si Candy. Kamukha lang. As in sobraaa. Pareho sila ng buhok, ng katawan, ng mata, ng ilong.

Di ko napigilan ang sarili ko na titigan siya. Di ko rin napigilan na panuorin siya habang nakikipag-usap siya sa telepono niya. Napapangiti na lang nga ako sa kaniya eh. Pati ba naman kasi punto ni Candy kuhang-kuha niya.

So ano naman ngayon diba? Bakit kelangan isulat ko pa siya dito?

Wala. Namimiss ko na rin kasi si Candy. Pero, ang priiiide. Mm. Ang pride.

Magsama sila ng boyfriend niya. Walangya. Magsama silaaaaa! Magpakasal na sila at magkaanak. I don't caaaaare!

Haha.

Bitter.

Labels: feelings

kitten posted @ 10:33 PM

Randoms things about me

I'm Kitten :)

I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.

Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.

I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.

If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be crazy.

I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.

I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.

I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.

I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.

There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.

I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.

I am very fragile.

I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.

I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.

I love my friends <3

I am extremely spiritual but not religious.

Things I want to do in my life time

~~Get a job.~~
Save up enough money to go back home - ~~wherever that is~~ ~~if I ever had one~~ before I'm 40.
Write a book.
Sing for a Disney movie.
Buy a house on top of a hill.
Go bunjee jumping.
~~Travel halfway around the world.~~
See Italy.
~~Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.~~
~~Draw and paint.~~
~~Learn how to play Sudoku.~~
Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
~~Quit smoking.~~

Kitten recommends:

Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
Neil Gaiman's American Gods
Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life

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