Love, I've heard, is a decision.

Is it really?

Everything is a result of a decision.

Really?

Yes. Everything involves choices.

It just so happens that sometimes those choices are not yours to make.

So don't tell me It's my decision. It is not, and you know it.

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And so I am stuck here, days after I've made the choice to let go of you and of everything I have ever felt for you. It is time, I thought, that this love is given to someone more deserving of it - ME.

But that's just it. I. Am. Stuck.

I guess it's just one of those things that you can't just choose the same way you pick your clothes.

And for what it's worth, the only part of me that's still battling to hold on to you is my heart... And it's the strongest and most powerful part of me...

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Jancel. Siya ang tutee ko sa LTS.

He has a very, very short attention span. He's very shy. He doesn't know the letters of the alphabet, with the exception of ABC... But he looks at me when I speak to him. He tries his best to do what I ask. And when I saw him last, the moment he saw me, he put on the sweetest smile I have ever seen from a child.

He reminds me of my tutee, Alex, back when we had Social Action classes (Is that what they were?). Alex used to run to me shouting "Andito na si Ate Kitten! Andito na si Ate Kitten!"

Absolutely heartwarming.

LTS is so for me.

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I officially hate Philo 1...

I woke up early to do my homework in that dumb class. I got asked to step-out (A first in the history of my entire life.) of the class because I didn't have the workbook. I had to stay behind an hour and a half later because we were required to attend a stupid symposium.

I've never hated a subject in my entire life - until now.

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Did you know that I'm homophobic? LOL. It's ironic, I know, but I am.

I'm generally okay with lesbians, seeing as I have tendencies to be one myself. But dykes scare the hell out of me... Don't ask me why... They just do.

I am never coming home late again, I swear.

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I'm gonna live my life like every day's the last
Without a simple goodbye, it all goes by so fast

And now that you're gone, I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough for you to hear me now
Gonna open my eyes and see for the first time
I've let go of you like a child letting go of his kite

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why, I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough for you to hear me now

I look back in vain and see you standing there
When all that remains is just an empty chair
And now that you're gone, I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough for you to hear me now

There it goes up in the sky
There it goes beyond the clouds
For no reason why, I can't cry hard enough
No, I can't cry hard enough for you to hear me now...

This song's for you... I miss you so much... It's just so dark without the sun...
kitten posted @ 7:47 AM