Due to public demand, I have risked what I now consider to be my liberty - if you can call it that - to update my blog. Wee. I love being a rebel. Gets the blood pumping through my veins. LOL.

Anyway, this sem break (or perm break, for me) has been a real bummer. I've been cooped up eery single day, doing nothing but reading and watching TV. Of course, that ain't half bad considering I haven't had the time to read (or reread) my books since summer but I guess the idea of having to do that for the rest of the year... kinda... well... ruins the fun of it.

Friday last week was hell. Ugh. I was supposed to come to school to pick up my class cards (and hang with my friends, of course) when my dad suddenly changed his mind "because of the rain". (My dad and I haven't really been in good terms, and I have been doing what I seem fit - nothing. It's better just to get out of the way than to get into more trouble. I don't want to go away a month early, you know. LOL.) That kinda ruined everything for me, seeing as I wanted to spend time with... people. But like I said, I was better off not doing anything. So that was what I did.

Yesterday was great though. After a long (and I mean looong) break from driving, I had once again laid hands on the wheel. Oh yeah. It was good. I swear. A little too good, I think. Because our car, yes, that cute little blue van we all love, wound up in the gutter. Punyeta.

Nakakahiya.

At first I was cool, I tried to back out our car from the gutter, but my plan backfired (Funny how things work out sometimes) and I got even more stuck. Yipee.

Sino ba naman kasing tanga ang magmamaneho ng alas singko ng umaga, ha? Kung kelan madilim?

Ako. Si Kitten. Yuck. Tanga. *headdesk*

I sat there. I just sat there. My tito's house was a minute's walk from where I was. I could go there. Ask for help... Pero shempre nahiya ako. Duh. Musta ka naman diba? Mashado naman atang nahahalata na gusto kong makawala sa kulungan ko! So I didn't go. Even if I knew I should have.

Luckily, God has never failed me and as dawn broke, (yes, I watched the sunrise...) my tito's car drove out from their house's drive way and passed to where I was. *sigh* Rescued by family...

not!

Unfortunately, my tito had this really bad case of the hemorrhoids and can't push the damn van. Oh yeah. Almuranas. Now I truly understand the benefits of diet and exercise. *snigger*

So anu ngang gagawin ko? Leche. It was a good thing my tito had enough sense in him to call other people for help and... after twenty minutes of slave labor... *snigger* We got the car out of the stupid gutter. I stood there and watched the men do the work. *sigh* The perks of being a lady! LOL.

Siguro kung nasa tama akong pag-iisip ay umuwi na ako... Pero hindi. Nag-ikot pa ako at kung san-san ako nakarating.

Driving... It's an escape. It's just like... writing... and music.

The sun was up (waaay up before I decided to head back home) and I was welcomed by a loud

Linisin mo yung kotse. Ikaw ang nagdumi niyan.

*sigh* What was I saying about the perks of being a lady? I seem to have forgotten... LOL.

I got out of bed early today to do the same thing and this time, I didn't dare go near gutters or whathaveyous because my tito might not be there to rescue me.

Can't wait to get my international license...

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I realised that I seem to have a knack for attracting people who are already committed. Ahem.

(She won't be able to read this, so it's okay if I spill all the beans)

Naiinis ako. Alam naman niya na may girlfriend na siya eh. At alam naman niya na may mahal ako. Pero kung tratuhin niya ako parang... kami.

Hindi sa ayaw ko. Shempre nakakamiss din yung merong naglalambing sa'yo. Nangungulit at lahat na. Tska masarap din yung may magbalik (if you can call it that) ng feelings mo. Pero naman. Wag naman yung taken na diba?

The idea of having someone visit me here at home, and play with my brothers and just hang is inviting. Especially now that I haven't anything to occupy me. And she (yup, babae...nanaman.) lives so far away! The idea of dropping by here to visit me... just to see me... Shit.

And she invited me to watch her games! Shit. Games! Plural! Grabe. So anung papel ko dun diba? Di naman ako bball fun so bakit ako mag-aabalang pumunta dun kung hindi ko naman siya kaano-ano?

And she's asking me to go places with her.

What does she expect me to say? What does she expect me to do?

Am I supposed to play stupid and act like I don't know about the other girl?

Querida.

You don't really want to be called this in Filipino no matter how wonderful it sounds in Spanish.

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Unsent letter No. 4

Dear Sunshine,

I miss you so much. I haven't heard from you in a while. I'm sure you're doing okay.

I was looking through my things last week and I found this toy chick you gave me. God! I cried. I felt stupid. I had no reason to cry... so what was I doing crying?

I looked at it. It was because of this dub chick that I entertained what I felt for you. This dumb chick.

You gave it to me. For no reason. Or probably because you heard me whining about not having one.

I miss you. Talaga.

I wanted to see you last friday. I wanted to give you some of the poems I wrote for you over the break. They're kinda dumb, pero... bored ako eh.

I heard you know this site na... Sana hindi. Thought about changing the url, but a lot of people will have trouble accessing it, so wag na lang... Hope... well... Hope you like what you're reading. If you're reading this. LOL.


Missing you,
Moonlight
kitten posted @ 11:09 PM