I love you!

Hence an entry dedicated solely to you...

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Unsent letter No. 1

Dear Sunshine,

I was trying to study Stat a while ago, and found that all my thoughts revolved around you and, much to my dismay, not Stat. I figured after writing this I will be able to direct all my energy to studying and not thinking about you.

Remember the Soc Sci exam we took last Friday? Remember how you sat near me? God. I felt like I would melt. Even if you couldn't look at me (as if you would if you had the chance.), I was content breathing the same air you were breathing. I took in every second of that exam because it may never happen again.

We were handed the papers and I answered hurriedly, eager to finish and get home... and think about you some more. You are all I ever do! You must think I'm pathetic. If only you knew...

In the middle of the exam, you messed with your hair and the scent of it made its way to me. I closed my eyes and marveled at the smell of your shampoo. I smiled and thought that whoever marries you will be the luckiest person in the world. Not only are you smart and kind, you look and smell good too. You are a heavenly experience.

I closed my eyes again and made a memory of that moment, of the smell of your hair, of your crisp clothes that smell of fabric softener, of that stupid hat you're always wearing (that looks very good on you, btw), of your face, of your smile, of your laugh. I couldn't help but feel sad. I will leave you soon and... I do not know how it is I am going to live without you.

Surely, I will miss you when I leave. I will probably spend every waking minute thinking about how you are, and wishing that I could be there with you - forever.

I have given up hope of ever being with you. It will never happen... But I am happy, just recalling the smell of your hair.


Much love,
Moonlight
kitten posted @ 5:44 AM