The semester's almost over and... well, I haven't said anything about... you know. That thing where you leave and here's a possiblity you don't come back... Fuke.

I have told Sunshine. Yep. We had lunch together last Friday and I said it. In the middle of the laughing, in the middle of the eating... At that moment when I was I felt I could say it out loud and no one would hear... But I was heard. Loud and clear.

It wasn't easy, lemme tell you. It wasn't easy because I was hurting. I didn't want to say it out loud because it would make everything real. I want this to be just another bad joke. But it was real and it was honest and it was painful...

And I was afraid. I was afraid I'd hurt my Sunshine. I was afraid...

Di naman yun nasakatan. Alam ko na walang siyang pakialam. Sino ba naman ako para magkaron siya ng pakialam sa akin diba? So kung wala siyang pakialam bakit ko pa sinabi? Ewan... Siguro kasi... Dapat.

*sigh* Life's a bitch, really. It's either

1. You don't get what you want.


2. You get what you don't want. (Which is even worse, by the way.)

I might throw an end-of-semester party on October 13... I'll tell my blockmates then... :)

PS
Curious: I think I know who you are. Ha. Galing ko talaga. Napagtagpi-tagpi ko lang... :) Astig, babeh. :) I have one question though... Sabi mo ayaw mo nang puro kwento lang... So ibig sabihin may nagkukwento sa'yo? Ahem. Sino naman kaya ang nagkukwento sa'yo? :)

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I was supposed to post this last week, but I didn't get the chance. :)

I accidentally switched the channel last night to this show in GMA. It was about diamonds. Diamonds. *sparkling eyes*

They were featuring this guy who was supposed to propose to his girl. They went with him when he bought the engagement ring and stuff. Surprisingly enough, he only spent Php650.00 for a decent, diamond-looking-studded ring. Not bad. I doubt that girl will take the ring to the pawnshop to find out how much it's worth anyway.

So his big moment comes right?

Guy: Will you marry me?

Trust me. I'm a sucker for this sort of thing. *sparkling eyes* My heart was literally melting...

Then the girl says

Girl: Yes, I do.

*headdesk*

Girl: Yes, I do.

Let me take a moment to regret ever watching that... Moment over.

What a way to ruin the perfect moment. And on NATIONAL TELEVISION. God, the things people do (for love?). (Personally, I refuse to think that was done out of love. Love makes you do crazy, even ridiculous, things, but not stupid.)

I don't know what they were thinking. Maybe they were trying to impress the people who were watching. If that was it, their plan definitely (100 percent!) backfired. Maybe they thought it was more romantic to say it in English. Oh please. Everyone knows things that you really mean are best said in your native tongue. So... I've run out of excuses for them.

Relating this to neocolonialism (Sorry, I've been reading up for our exam in History.), we are still colonized. And we are all suffering because of it.

*shakes head in utter disbelief*

Rhoda's dad said in Filipino, "There is no hope for the Philippines, but there is hope yet for the Filipinos."

Hear, hear!

I wonder when things are going to change in this country...







I want to be part of that change. ;)

"Be the change you want to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi
kitten posted @ 8:35 PM