He called and I picked up. *headdesk*

God help me.

...

P: I asked her about what happened.
K: You did what?!
P: I asked her what she did.
K: OMG. When you ask me and I don't tell you, I don't tell you for a reason.
P: But I wanted to know. You wouldn't tell me.
K: *sighs* So, what did she say?
P: I asked her what she did, and she said she didn't do anything. And then I see her away message.
K: What did it say?
P: Rule number three...
K: *sigh*
P: Then I tell her that you were genuinely hurt.
K: You said what?!
P: I told her that you were genuinely hurt, that you were actually at the verge of tears.
K: *forces a laugh*
P: Then she says I don't give a fuck if she got hurt, and she said it in a black way too.
K: She said that?
P: Yeah. She's actually been saying that a lot.
K: *sighs*
P: And then she screams Way to take her side, and hangs up on me.
K: *sighs* What do you want me to say, Phil?
P: I don't know...

...

We were on the phone for an hour. And we weren't talking. It was uncomfortable, in a way. Almost like we were both sorry that everything was happening the way it was.

*sigh*

I said I wouldn't talk to him but I did. *headdesk* I'm an idiot. But to my credit, he had to call three times before I picked up. Like, I was staring into his landline's number for the longest time, wondering why he was calling me and thinking that I shouldn't pick up. He actually asked me why I didn't pick up, which I thought was funny because I could have been doing something unless he's read my post about me deleting his numbers and shit, which he couldn't have because I've kept this blog secret, from his at least. [My English teachers would weep at that last sentence! Haha. I'm intentionally not editing that because I think it's funny.] But yeah. He asked me if I was doing something, I said no. He asked me if I was just away, I said no, that I was actually just staring into his number. He asked why I didn't pick up, I was quiet then I said I didn't know. Then he asked me why I picked up, and I said it could have been an emergency. He laughed. I didn't think it was funny.

*sigh*

I need self-control. Can I get that online?

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There's just one thing I hope is true - he is taking my side.

Labels: love, thoughts

kitten posted @ 10:31 PM