Sunday, December 31, 2006
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Do you believe in The One? You know how they say that there's that one person out there for you?
---------------What sucks about having a computer is that I now have the time to check my Friendster. Before, I would have been in a hurry trying to take in as much as I can in very little time (As you know, I only used my aunt's computer upstairs.). Now I can take my time, read all I want, click the night away.
He looked me up. I know that because I clicked that link that says
viewed X times or something like that. He looked me up. So I looked him up. And I just had to scroll down. And scroll down. And read.
Will it make sense if I tell you that I felt a little jealous when I found out that they were still together? Will you believe me when I tell you I always thought we'd end up together, have kids and live happily ever after? Of course not. Because it's not me. That's why I hate it.
I did feel jealous. I did think we'd live happily ever after. He was the one for me. And I was the one for him. But things didn't work out.
I stared at his picture for a long time, a part of me still longing to be with him again. I found myself praying for another day with him so I could hold his hand and put my head on his shoulder and fall asleep in his arms forever.
We never fall out of love, I know. We just forget.
Now, all that needs to be said is this and I quote from U2's
Beautiful DayWhat you don't have, you don't need it now.---------------Lilo <3 bought me 3 biscuits today. Wala lang. Cute. <3
Labels: feelings, thoughts
kitten posted @ 1:04 AM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.
- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.
- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
Draw and paint.
Learn how to play Sudoku.
- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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