Saturday, December 16, 2006
Wednesday and Thursday [edit]
Sabi nung insurance company ni Daddy, hindi na daw ako covered sa insurance policy niya. Pero hindi ito dahil over 18 na ako, kasi in fact okay lang yun. Ang problema, hindi kasi ako full-time student tapos nagtatrabaho pa ako. Kunga baga, ay ken apord tu get may own insyurans. Di na kailangan makisali kay Tatay.
Saklap.I should quit my job.
---------------Do you know why I love to read? I love to read because I get away from it all. It's a vacation without having to buy airline tickets! (
Kahit kailan, kuripot talaga ako.)
I'd like to keep reading. Except I haven't had the time lately. In fact, I haven't had the time for anything else but my job.
Again. I should quit my job.
---------------Wednesday. Uncomfortable silences. Stolen glances. Stupid conversations to fill the quiet.
Thursday night. Feelings are making Heart confused. Mind has lost all will to fight Heart, but argues with one final point. Heart breaks. Mind wins.
Thursday night. Dark and cold out. Blurts out
Go home. I want to be alone. Friends refuse to go home.
Thursday night. Lights a cigarette. It has been long since one was lit.
And I don't think I ever lit one or finished one so quickly. Mai cries.
Thursday night. Dad arrives at the store. Time to go home.
Thursday night.
His stares burned into my skin and into my soul until it touched a part of me I thought I reserved for somebody else. He was trying to understand what was happening. He was trying to understand me. And I wanted to tell him of the battle that my heart was waging against my mind. I wanted to tell him everything. But had he the time? And had I the courage?Thursday night. Lies in bed. Closes eyes. Whispers a wish. Drifts off to sleep.
---------------I have stopped believing in the power of my dreams.
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kitten posted @ 12:40 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.Draw and paint.Learn how to play Sudoku.- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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