Disclaimer: The content of this entry is purely opinion. Any fights, resentment and any and all negativity experienced after reading hte entry is not the responsibility of the author.
The people in the text other than Mr. DJ Palestroque and Mr. Carl Vitug are anonymous. Any resemblance in behavior, appearance and/or language use is not intentional.
Author was in the influence of caffeine and/or sugar during the making of this entry. Don't take the entry too seriously.

I went to Carl's place today to practice for a competition we're joining on the twenty-eighth of this moth. This was yet another chance to hang with the guys, and I don't think I need to tell you that I have missed them so much. I mean, it's been a while since we played for a crowd. I think that was around first week of April, so basically it's been a month.

It was great seeing Kuya DJ and Carl again. They never fail to cheer me up, even when I'm upset about the most dreadful things. They are like the big brothers I always wish I had, but never did. (Drama ko ah.=P)

We were there a bit early and by the time the clock ticked three, we were almost done. Carl had to leave and get his brother, so DJ and I were left in the house. And he told me a couple of things that he thought I should know.

You know what he said? He said that the people in YFC are plastic. I couldn't say anything. I would be lying if I said it wasn't true, but I didn't have the courage to tell him to think otherwise because I knew that what he said was as real as the sky is blue.

It pains me to write this. Nakakainis. Bakit ganon? Naturingang Youth for Christ tapos ganon kung umasta? Nakakahiya sa mga taong hindi kabilang sa YFC kasi nasisira agad yung image namin sa kanila, pero mas nakakahiya kay God. I don't think we're living up to what He intended this organization to be.

Sa totoo lang, mahirap kasi na maging pantay-pantay sa YFC. I was thinking about this while I was on my way home and I figured that there are many things wrong, I mean not right about YFC and the people in it.

The organization has too many leaders. Soon, the leaders make a ladder to get to the top. Before you know it, everyone is climbing.

It's too patriarchal. I'm no sexist, but I know that women are as capable as men, especially in leadership. Unfortunately, the brothers are given more opportunities to lead.

The people are too,erm, touchy. People are sooo okay with co-ed hugging and co-ed kissing that other people are getting the impression that YFC is just a big soiree. It's not, but the people are turning it into one. (As a amatter of fact, I know a number of people who used and are using YFC to meet girls and boys that they can date.)

The people pretend to be something they're not whenever they're in YFC. (My bandmates and I have seen people go from "I-shall-never-smoke" to "I-shall-never-smoke-when-and-only-when-I-am-in-YFC". The same goes for booze, drugs and sex.)

The people who are of no use/value are usually not part of the "in-crowd" and wind up not attending. Honestly, I understand that. Who amongst us feels alright with being left out? I myself would rather not attend.

Uso ang bakstaban. (Ew. I hate the way typed that.) Sa sobrang pagka-uso niya, malingat ka lang ng isang saglit eh sira na ang career mo sa YFC. Sa sobrang uso niya, you can trace most of the worst junk from waaaay up in the ladder. Shitness.

Nobody pays any attention to the problems that are posed. I've been in YFC since 1999 (Yes, alamat na ako sa YFC dahil sa sobrang tagal ko na.=P) and the problem was alread existent then. I guess everyone's too busy with their masquerade that they don't have time to care about, and I quote, "something innocent". Tss. Yeah right.

He wasn't the first to tell me this, and I'm pretty sure he wouldn't be the last. I'm sure I'll be hearing more complaints from other people. I just hope that by the time I leave this organization, it's all over. I have plans on how we're going to remedy all these things, but as of now they are merely plans. Only tomorrow can tell if they'll ever really happen.

Anyway, he asked me if I ever experienced those things - plastikan, bakstaban, and the like. And I said, no. And he looked surprised. How could I not experience such when I've been in the org for six years? Simple. You pose yourself as if you have no value and/or use but act as if you do. The people get confused on whether they'll leave you out or let you join in, and they end up letting you do what you want. They have a hard time classifying you so they leave you alone. *evil laugh* I can be sooo twisted sometimes, but it has worked so far. And God has brought me places.

PS I really need to get the friggin' job. We won't be able to record our album without the money...
kitten posted @ 6:58 AM