Thursday, September 20, 2007
As black as the night and as sweet as chocolate...
K: Hello?
P: Hey.
K: *recognition* Oh, hey. What do you need?
P: Nothing.
K: Okay. What do you want?
P: Why is it that I must want or need something?
K: I don't know. I just want to know why you're calling and I figured it's either because you want something or need something.
P: Can't I just call because I want to?
K: I guess you can, if you want to.
[talks for half an hour about school and work]
P: ... and I have this essay that's due tomorrow.
K: You better go do it then.
P: What?
K: Your essay. You better get started on it.
P: *forced a laugh* It sounds like you were waiting for me to say something like that.
K: *stunned silent*
P: You didn't even think about it. The moment I said I had to do something, you suggested that we hang up.
K: I just don't want you to stay up too late just because you were on the phone with me.
P: [hint of disbelief in his voice] Sure. Sure. *sighs*
K: *sighs* Okay. Go do your essay.
P: Okay. I'll talk to you again soon.
K: *clicks*
---------------It's bittersweet. I loved that he called me [before I called him. I was bound to give in to the urge sometime. Haha.] and I loved that he called me
just because, and I loved how we talked like nothing ever happened. But I hate that he called me
just because and I hate that as much as I want to apologize for what I did and as much as I want to just pour my heart out, I can't. No, I
can, if I want to enough. It's more that
I shouldn't.
Quiet now, your voice seems miles away
Yet somehow, I hear your song resound
A little bit softer each day,
And for my tired heart, a little bit farther away...~from Copeland's
You Have My Attention*sigh*
I am better off without the one thing I live for.Labels: love
kitten posted @ 1:16 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.Draw and paint.Learn how to play Sudoku.- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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