Sunday, August 05, 2007
Awakening
When I close my eyes to this paradox place
I'll fly away
Far away from here,
I’ll get away and dream, dream of you.
When its all said and done,
And the night has come,
I'll disappear, take flight on the wind of wishing you where here,
Fading light like a star whose life has been gone for years.
And I'll fly, fly across the sky,
And I’ll leave, leave it all behind,
If you’d be here, here with me tonight,
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine...
I’ll disappear, take flight on the wind of wishing you were here,
Fading light like a star whose life has been gone for years.
And I'll fly, fly across the sky,
And I’ll leave, leave it all behind,
If you’d be here, here with me tonight,
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine…
from Mae's album Destination: B-Sides
---------------So... it's still a good two weeks before my birthday but things aren't exactly looking so bright for me. In fact, things are looking so grim that I actually spent my break crying in the stairwell. It's all quite sad, actually... And bad habits are rearing their ugly heads just because they know I'm not strong enough to resist.
People ask me whether I enjoy the pain, whether I want to die and whether I am losing my mind. I say:
Who can enjoy pain? Who would want to die? And perhaps I am losing my mind...
I am tired. Really tired.We're all tired. Really tired.
---------------Apparently, my birthday isn't important enough for people to take the day off. *sobs*
Ayoko na. *sobs*
Labels: feelings
kitten posted @ 9:09 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.Draw and paint.Learn how to play Sudoku.- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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