Sunday, March 16, 2008
on Perfection
Everything is great. Life is just grand. Okay, I lied. Life isn't grand. In fact, in more than one respect, life is actually worse than it was six months ago. But this warm and fuzzy feeling that wraps itself around my heart sets a nice glow to everything around me. I'm still convinced that life is grand.
He and I agree that everything about the two of us seems like it was meant to be. Physically, intellectually, emotionally - we are in perfect sync. I can't remember the last time I was this happy. I can't remember the last time I was this content.
But tell me why I'm getting this... weird feeling like something's going to go wrong. I don't know what it is. But I can feel it every now and then, like a reminder that life can't be perfect. We can only strive for perfection, not achieve it.
If Andy were reading this he would probably rub my arm and say "You're such a pessimist." Oh, and he's right. I am such a pessimist. I just find it really hard to go along with this perfection. I've just been so used to mediocre, one-way relationships that I'm scared this will turn out to be one too. *sigh*
Spring break this week.
Monday: Liberty Science Center
Tuesday: BODIES Exhibit + Bubba Gump
Wednesday: Firefly + Serenity marathon at my house.
Thursday: [Bike-riding at Libery State Park]
Friday: Shopping @ Willowbrook Mall
Labels: love, thoughts
kitten posted @ 8:18 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.Draw and paint.Learn how to play Sudoku.- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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