Sunday, October 28, 2007
*wide grin*
Pag bigyan niyo na ako, okay. Kung mamimili ako sa mga ex ko kung sino ang pinakasiniryoso ko, yung tipong inimagine ko yung sarili kong tumatanda kasama sila, isa si Jayar sa dalawa. [Uuuy, blind item: Yung isa, pangalan six letters, naguumpisa sa C at dalawang pantig lang ang haba ng pangalan niya. Babae.]
Kaya ba hindi ko maalis sa sarili ko na mangiti ng mabasa ko sa message niya sa'kin na "miss na miss na miss" na niya ako. Nakakapanlambot naman ng puso diba? Kahit sabihin mo pa sa'kin na iba ang ibig niyang sabihin, kahit na sabihin mo pa sa'kin na malayo siya ngayon sa'kin, yun lang nangahas siyang sabihin sa'kin na nangungulila siya para sa'kin ay higit pa sa sapat. Sabi ko nga sa inyo, siniryoso ko siya, kahit na magulo ang mga pangyayari. At si Jayar, si Papa Jayar, hindi ko lang [ex]boyfriend; best friend ko din siya, pwera biro.To be honest, I don't know how I'm supposed to treat him now. A part of me thinks that it has been too long, just too long, since we've exchanged hellos to even remember how friendship works. And an even greater part of me doesn't even want to remember how that friendship work
ed because to do so would mean remembering how love grew from that friendship, and I'm not one for opening cans of worms. But then there's this part of me that longs for him, you know? There's a part of me that remembers how wonderful it was to hold hands, to walk at night, to spend entire afternoons together doing nothing, to listen to and make music [My guitar still smells of his perfume.]... He was great, and we were great together. We were polar opposites, but we made it work...
*sigh*
Becca's mad and, surprisingly, I don't care.
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kitten posted @ 7:17 PM
Randoms things about me
I'm Kitten :)
I get a year older every 17th of August. I am a Leo, and I carry all traits associated with that zodiac.
Right now, I'm twenty years old and I'm loving it. They say we're only as young as we feel. I feel like I'm five.
I would never leave the house without my Zen and my E2. The latter connects me to the world; the former takes me away from it.
If I were to choose a word to describe my life, that word would be
crazy.
I am in love with the stars. I am in love with the rain.
I am a Rutgers University student, and I want to graduate with an English degree. An English-Psych double major would be nice. An English-TCert would be even better.
I want to be a teacher. I want to be writer. I want to be both.
I thrive on indie and emo. Mae, The Spill Canvas, Copeland and Daphne Loves Derby - these are the guys that I listen to. I listen to other bands here and there, but mostly those are the bands I follow. That being said, I'm a mainstream moron.
There's no feeling more lovely than being carried away. People don't usually think of me as somebody spontaneous, but I like being swept away as much as the next girl.
I fall in love easily, but it is really hard for me to fall out. Really hard.
I am very fragile.
I am tolerant of almost everything except one thing: intolerance.
I am an extensive reader. I thirst only for meaning, nothing else.
I love my friends <3
I am extremely spiritual but not religious.
Things I want to do in my life time
Get a job.
- Save up enough money to go back home -
wherever that is if I ever had one before I'm 40.
- Write a book.
- Sing for a Disney movie.
- Buy a house on top of a hill.
- Go bunjee jumping.
Travel halfway around the world.
- See Italy.
Find the one person who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
Draw and paint.
Learn how to play Sudoku.
- Volunteer for American/Philippine Red Cross or UNHCR.
Quit smoking.
Kitten recommends:
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery's The Little Prince
- Trina Paulus' Hope for the Flowers
- Paulo Coehlo's Eleven Minutes
- Leo Tolstoy's The Death of Ivan Ilych and Other Stories
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- J.D. Salinger's Catcher in the Rye
- Neil Gaiman's American Gods
- Anne Rice's Beauty's Release
- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch's Venus in Furs
- Douglas F. Hofstadter's Godel Escher Bach: An Eternal Golden Braid
- Leonard Mlodinow's Feynman's Rainbow: A Search for Beauty in Physics and in Life
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