Saturday, February 10, 2007
Today was the day.
When Dax said he was at the store, my immediate reaction was to make my way to the counter and say hi. But then it hit me. This guy is an illusion. He doesn't exist. I may fall in love with everything I see in him, but at the end of the day, he's nothing but lies.
I stopped half-way to the counter. I didn't want to see him, and he didn't need to see me. I wanted to leave it at that.
Around 8 tonight, I started cleaning up around the store. Funny thing, I'm refilling the condiments and he goes there. He grabs my hand for a shake and kisses me on the cheek. I forced a smile and asked how he was. He said he was fine. He asked for lemon, I gave him some and I walked away.
They stayed until the store's closing. I had to act like it wasn't a big deal that he was there, so I started with the inventory. He got up to leave and I gave a sigh of relief all too soon. It wasn't long before he was making his way to me.
We're leaving, he says to me.
Oh, okay. Ingat.
He grabs my hand again and kisses me on the cheek. I'll see you again soon, then points a finger at me.
I smiled. I was cursing under my breath. He starts walking away then he double-takes, says quickly You look good then flashes his debonaire smile.
Now, forgive me for saying this but I hate that he tries to act like we're still the sweetum-teetum item that we were a couple of months back. And I hate that though he's an
Kahit na. Columbia guy, you are so last year.
Do you believe in celebrating monthsaries? There's no such thing as monthsaries, even.
I'm sorry but I think it's so mediocre. Gawd. *rolls eyes*
Magbati na kayo. Para kayong tanga. Marami pang monthsary na darating para sa inyong dalawa, diba? O kiss and make up na.
Pengeng singles!, sabi ni Lilo sa'kin kanina, sabay abot ng ten dollars.
Binuksan ko yung kaha ko, sabay bilang ng sampung singles. Inabot ko sa kanya without looking up from what I was doing.
Kinuha niya yung singles sa kamay ko. Tapos nagulat ko kasi he grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I still didn't look up. And I pretended like it didn't happen. But my body had other plans.
I had to go to the kitchen para makatakas sa powers ng lolo mo. Grabe na itu. Sabi tuloy sa'kin ni Ralph Bawal ngiti-ngiti dito, busy kame.
That was the first time he held my hand. And he squeezed it. My god he squeezed it. *sigh* Sana... wala lang.
Ang gulo ko. One minute gusto ko siya, the next ayaw ko na ulit.
From Third Eye Blind's Mototrcycle Drive By:
And there's this burning like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive.
Sabi nga ni Emilee, Gaano man ka-intimidating si Kitten, at the end of the day, she's still a girl.
kitten posted @ 11:07 PM
